Becoming reality.
I realised yesterday that waiting until a month
before the move to make a final decision is probably too late. So I made the
decision...
We've hired a moving company to pick up our stuff
on December 7th. They're just waiting for a $1,000 cheque to confirm it. Once
that's confirmed, I'm giving notice with the rental company. It's all starting
to become a bizarre mixture of excitement and melancholia. I've been in
Southern California for nearly 21 years; a lot's happened in that time. I
watched my career as a composer emerge, grow, flourish, and falter. I got
married in Calabasas, had my kids in Ventura, and said a final goodbye to my
sister in Sherman Oaks. It's not all history that I'm leaving behind, either.
I still have a few friends left after the move to Oxnard. (The move culled most
of them even though I'm only about 45 minutes north of where I used to live in
the San Fernando Valley.) My parents are still in the San Fernando Valley, and
my brother is still just minutes away from me in
Oxnard.
But now is the time to be looking
forward - and forward looking, I am! I started getting excited about being
there... experiencing seasons again... ice skating outdoors in Central Park in
the winter evenings... travelling up even farther north in the summer... camping
in Jasper... and just the idea of living in a small, rural Canadian community.
I'm enthusiastic about switching my focus from music to writing - novels, short
stories, screenplays, blogs, or even articles for the Spruce Grove Examiner - I
really don't care. It's all feeling very much like a positive step in the right
direction.
I certainly need to stay
focused on all of that as the details begin to overwhelm me. There's so much to
do, I can't even keep track of it...
Posted: Tue - October 11, 2005 at 04:15 PM